May be we really cannot forget someone easily... this is true... May be at first we shouldn't know each other.. May be that time I shouldn't go there.. May be I shouldn't serve you... If I didn't then all this will not happen... At first I am so happy to know you.. I just treat you as 1 of my close friend and I thought we can maintain like this forever.. but.. now... we no longer friend.. I still remember that you say you and me are not friend anymore.. If that day is me reply you ... what will happen now?? May be like this also good.. At least you found someone that love you... Both of us are gemini.. so I know what are you thinking.... I just want to be your friend... but at the time you want more than that.. I know at the end we will be like this... this is not the first experience for me... By the way, I still will view your facebook and I have delete your number as what you want me to do....

School reopen already... today is my first day go to class for this semester... such a boring day... haiz... lecture class so boring.....  By the way, I need to concentrate on my study and enjoying my study life... no more holiday... May be I should keep my mind from that things... so that I won't think anymore.... haiz... so hard for me to forget.... I scare I will do something wrong again...... god bless me!!!!

now my problem had solved... so happy now... feel satisfy.... hope what I have chose will not make me regret... travel to kl with my kk for 2 days.... so happy... haha... such a nice trip..... n now he back to work already.... I am still holiday now... next monday open school already.... and the boring life will start already.... feel scared... I don't want back kampar!!!!!

Holiday~

Holiday now... but the first day of my holiday .... started with sadness.... when I receive that news... I really so sad.... I am so shock and cannot believe what I saw.... But I know I need to accept that reality.... that cannot changed already.... I think so much today.... May be I should let time choose for me.... choose the ending for me.....

Finally my exam is over..... just now celebrate with friends..... so happy..... my holiday start already.... I hope I can have an unforgettable holiday.... I hope so..... Now he said something hurt me again....at the time I disappointed and don't want bother anymore... he said something and I know... relate to me.... he got something that I don't know..... Just because of this... I can smile back and feel happy.... I really don't know what happen to me..... how come I will like this..... I really hate this kind of me.... really hate.... I want to be getting out of such bad feeling.... I don't like this......

coming to the last paper.... the most difficult subject... I guess I no need sleep already.... plus I don't have mood to study.... but I quite happy today.... finally he sms me... but I didn't saw that message... but at least enough for me.... enough to make me happy... thanks....

Finish my math exam today... now just left sociology on monday... which is the hardest subject in this semester.... but I will try my best to study all chapters and remember all the terms in each chapter.... Just take this subject as history... just the language different only.... By the way, my eyes are getting serious these few days... especially at night... eye mol also cannot work... may be because of exam..... Holiday... I am waiting for you... Haha.... I still got 1 more day to study my sociology... Gambateh!!!

Just left 2 more subject.. then my exam will over.. and is near and near to that time... I really hope that the time will pass slowly... better stop there.. but I know it's impossible... what I can do is just appreciate every second... May be I am too greedy and do not know to appreciate what I had now... I know I still can get it back but I just don't want to hurt you anymore... so I just respect you... yesterday having a short talk with him... but at the end I didn't get anything except disappointed... May be is my fault again for not appreciate and being too greedy... I know... may be I just have to be alone... and cannot think so much anymore.... May be study is the only thing that will accompany me always.....

May be is me think too much... Disappointed again... and i will become single soon.. I also not really clear about what is actually happened now.. but single not bad also.. At least i can have freedom.. although will lack of caring of somebody.. may be will regret for losing somebody in my heart... but love is so simple.. now become so complicated... and not suit for me anymore... but if really got somebody that chase me using another way.. not by sms... may be i will take in consideration... but sure not for now... I want enjoy my single life first....

steamboat~

one more thing... because i am busy studying this few days and no mood at all so i din talk about that day gathering... going steamboat again last friday.. with my old classmate... happy to meet them all again.... everybody have their own life already... and sure something have changed... but nevermind... i also got my own life here... with my friends here... all that have changed i also cannot control... however, i also enjoy that day... here are some of our photo.... and that day... i forget i cannot wear high heel shoe... and scold by shi ni.... haha.... i am the tallest that night....

first time~

Today is my first day of examination in my uni life... and is not good... when i reach campus i just noticed that block B is block. I cannot go to print my slip... without that I cannot exam... so i rush to block H from block B... and i am searching the printing shop after reach there... when i found it, there is a long line there... Luckily they want photocopy... not printing... after printing i rush back from block H to block B.... really tired..... when i reach block B, then we are allow to go in already... critical thinking paper really kill me.... my english is so poor.... and the test paper is all test on vocabulary... i cannot even understand what the question ask.... i just wish at least i can get a B for it... then i will really very happy already.... tomorrow is economics..... I want score in this paper.... i would not let my critical thinking damage my result.... so i need to work hard to make sure other subject can score.... God bless me....