What Should I DO?????

at the end i done it... but then is it really good for me?
i duno... mayb i oso did some mistake... n i know more about this...
so should i take initiative to apologize?
i duno... mayb i really easy to be influenced by others...
i have been thinking for this for whole day..
i am nw treated as out group.. from their action i know...
so what should i do??
take action or just leave it like dat??
really hard for me to make decision.....

TO END OF MY 1ST SEM^^

for so long i din update my blog ady... but then seem my frens r reading it .. so i m writing it...
come to the end of my 1st sem in degree... it's time for my final...
what do i feel?? i still can cope... just new things to learn... dun hv big problem in my study..
bt then big problem is around me since dis sem....
make me cnt do dis cnt do dat...
so angry with all those ppl who do not gv me drink water even dat is my things...
cnt cook bcz they r using it... nw they r delaying my time... my eating time...
make me oways not eat on time...
oways using my things... take my things for granted... without asking or taking care of it..
wan to move but cnt.. still need to stand dis for more than half year...
i will just continue to stand it until i cn move out...
n my poor frens... my family n oso my bf need to listen to my story everyday...
for me to express my emotion n feeling......
thank you so much!!!

new experience^^

wow... for so long time i din update my blog ady...
i m nw really in Y1S1 psychology life ady..
i try my best for the full scholarship but then i still cnt achieve it..
so hard for me... just 0.03 i cn have it... but...
nw living in new house with new housemate...
but then there are so many conflict among us...
there is so many dissatisfaction among us... i m really cnt stand with it anymore..
but am i courage enough to do this?? to end all of this...
i will try it tonight... just pray that i cn success......

May be we really cannot forget someone easily... this is true... May be at first we shouldn't know each other.. May be that time I shouldn't go there.. May be I shouldn't serve you... If I didn't then all this will not happen... At first I am so happy to know you.. I just treat you as 1 of my close friend and I thought we can maintain like this forever.. but.. now... we no longer friend.. I still remember that you say you and me are not friend anymore.. If that day is me reply you ... what will happen now?? May be like this also good.. At least you found someone that love you... Both of us are gemini.. so I know what are you thinking.... I just want to be your friend... but at the time you want more than that.. I know at the end we will be like this... this is not the first experience for me... By the way, I still will view your facebook and I have delete your number as what you want me to do....

School reopen already... today is my first day go to class for this semester... such a boring day... haiz... lecture class so boring.....  By the way, I need to concentrate on my study and enjoying my study life... no more holiday... May be I should keep my mind from that things... so that I won't think anymore.... haiz... so hard for me to forget.... I scare I will do something wrong again...... god bless me!!!!