Gathering for X13~

Tomorrow will be the last day for me to attend classes for this semester. Just now we are having a small gathering for our group at golden sand. Have fun just now. Now i need to concentrate on my preparation for final exam, i just left few days to go. so nervous. first exam in my uni life. I hope friends here still can contact next semester as we are still friends. I still remember that for the first time i came here, i really hate here. But now i knew so many friends and have a lot of fun. I enjoy uni life now. I start ti like here now. here are some photos we took just now... and now i want to put my effort and fight for success. "kampar teh" !!!!

stay away from me~

i am just trying to keep all those problems away. what i want is just a peaceful life. please..... don't disturb me anymore. love is not important to me. my study family friends will come first. so if you say you love me is your problem. for me you are just my friend. i didn't think so much to couple with you. never. this won't happen to me. i have told you to stop it. if you do not want to do so, never mind. i will try to stay away from you. so that i just can concentrate on my study and i won't hurt somebody i loved. i will try my best to succeed as soon as possible.

exam~

week 13 is coming.. all mid term test ended.. this means final is coming.. time really past so fast.. semester 1 want already want end. i think i should start my revision now..plan my time well so that i can score in my exam.. my target is scholarship... i want it so much.. if i can get my dad won't have to spend so much for my study.. i think i should leave all matter around me  and concentrate... may be is real i shouldn't think about love problem anymore.. if is me that will always stay with me.. if is not then what i do also will be the same.. this weekend... will be the time for me to study... i hope i can do it... Gambateh... recently i just realize that i shouldn't miss class... every second count... all that i have pay for it... i cannot waste it... i remember i didn't miss any tuition class because my dad had paid for it... even go school is free i also attend everyday.. so now i attending economic although my friend didn't.. Just need to be alone.. but i need to use to it.. as now i am in university and this is university life....

last presentation for sem1~

today i finish my last presentation. However, the ending not good. I have prepared myself well but what i get at last just talk 2 sentences only. because time up already. and i m the last presenter. so i cannot continue already. Just leave it. Not my fault also. Is just because we din prepared well only. i dun know what i am thinking now. How come i can love another guy and that is not my boyfriend. i have shared this problem with him and i know is not fair to him. but may be is me selfish. he treat me too good until i cannot let him go. for the guy i love really sorry. may be we are same so i know what will happen if i together with him. i will be treated not as good as what my boyfriend did now. i know he will hurt me. i prefer the one who treat me good instead of someone i love. may be i will regret but i really scare i will miss someone that good to me.

Ghost~

so long time din feed my blog. many things happened within this period of time. i done my radioplay and critical thinking presentation. i gt my math test, sociology and economic test. my math not bad. my sociology manage to get full marks. i also wonder how i can do that. my economic not so good. never mind. i will try my best in final. actually i don't know if friend really important. but may be like this i will know who is really my friends. got 1 friend now. actually he got chance but i worry too much. i know he will not suit to me. our background not same. although our personality almost same , this is the main problem. we think things at the same way. i will get mad when he not care me. and he just a selfish man. he not what i want. but why i still cannot let him go. he is the only 1. although he hurt me , i still cannot hate him. may be we are really same as me also will make people suffer like this. and now i know what the feeling now. i remember last time i manage to let him go but he find me at last. i think i should find ways to let go him. i don't want like this anymore. this few days raining at night. the whole night. may be is because of ghost month now. i back to him last saturday. i don't know this is right or not. but what i want is just i cannot find someone else that treat me better than him.